New Beginnings

I’m alive! I feel so bad that I haven’t been able to update like, ever, lately- for those of you who leave the sweetest comments telling me that you really love to read my blog, I’m really sorry that it’s been so few and far between lately. I hope to get back on some type of regular schedule with blogging soon since I have some fabulous news to share.

If you know me in real life then you know I have been very unhappy in my job for a long time now. If you are a smart cookie, you could probably read between the lines of a lot of my blog posts talking about how stressed and unhappy I’ve been over the last couple of years. Not just at work, but family issues as well have caused the last 2.5 years to be nothing short of miserable- with of course some AMAZING things that happened during, as well. I kid you not, there have been more moments where I have wanted to give up than to carry on. Moments turned into weeks of feeling desperate, hopeless and completely defeated. A year and a half ago I went on a low dose of Welbutrin to help with my anxiety and depression and it has definitely helped a ton. My circumstances actually got worse since I’ve been on the medicine, but taking it along with beginning to teach spin has helped me see and manage everything in a new light.

Back in March I decided it was time to work hard at finding a new job. I still have no clue exactly what it is I want to do but one thing I do know is that I am ready to be done with retail and the luxury fashion world. Yes, you need to be thick skinned to handle it. Have I developed a thicker skin than when I started in December 2011? You bet I have. But at what cost? I have turned into a miserable, bitter, actually bitchy person. Mean to strangers, NO patience whatsoever for anything or anyone- all characteristics I didn’t posses before this job. Except for the patience part… when I started I had a smidgen of patience, now it’s below 0. I started to work with recruiters and went on lots of interviews and got my hopes up about a few that didn’t end up working out. Finally after 2 great interviews and a long weekend of waiting and praying and hoping, I got the call last Monday that I was being offered a job that has a lot to promise. Better hours, better pay, better benefits and most of all; better quality of life. It’s going to give me the chance to teach more classes, and have a clearer head to figure out the path I want to go in. I truly can’t even think straight once I leave work and head right to bed the minute I get home, leaving me in a cycle of nothing but work and sleep. I HATE it and have hated every minute of it. Since I gave my 2 weeks notice last week, I have felt nothing but extreme relief and not an ounce of doubt. Even better, I was off for a week that I had already planned so my stress level is so far below what it has been for years that I am feeling like a brand new person. I am excited for my next chapter and more than anything I am SO READY for it!! :-)

Things I cannot wait for with this new chapter:

  • Being able to wear nail polish again. Yep, haven’t been able to. MANICURES EVERY NIGHT, YA’LL!
  • Wearing normal clothes again. Looking fashionable. Do you know how terrible it’s been to my style to have to wear the ugliest uniform of all time for a fashion company?! It doesn’t even make sense! I’ve already spent too much money on new clothes and I don’t even care. J-Crew Factory until I’m broke. Oops, already happened.
  • Teach more night classes/sub them. I can never do them because I work until 7 or later… not no mo!
  • Take classes at night since I teach 3 mornings a week! HELLO, STRENGTH TRAINING!
  • WEEKENDS OFF. WHAT.
  • I will be doing long runs on Saturdays now, followed by spending the rest of the day out on the beach, sleeping in a bit on Sundays and then teaching my Sunday morning spin class. Heaven?
  • Stability.

So ready to embrace this next new chapter. I promise to you, my amazing readers, that I will post at least a couple of times a week again. And I am 99.9% sure they will be about me being a happy person again. :-)

(I will have an awesome re-cap of my weekend upstate with my family and friends, and running the Binghamton 1/2 marathon tomorrow! Sneak peak: I was only 1 minute off my PR and my best friend Brenda had an 11 minute PR!)

Have you ever had a big career change? For the better or worse?

What are the “perks” of your job? I truly consider being able to be your unique self and wear your own clothing to be at the top! I feel like I can be so much more productive when I’m happy and comfortable and feel good!

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27 thoughts on “New Beginnings

  1. Our jobs MUST leave room for our life. If you are just too busy and stressed, it’s never going to work in the long term. This change will be awesome for you, and you are so strong and brave for taking a hard decision that you had to take to make your life better.
    As a mom of 2, flexibility is the best perk of my job.. I work full time, but I need time here and there to take the kids to the doctor, to run errands, to leave early because we have a birthday party in the afternoon.. little things that I can’t just fit otherwise.

    • It’s so great that your job gives you that flexibility to take care of your kids! :) Being so stressed out takes a huge toll on every aspect of your life, and I haven’t felt like myself in years because of that. Not good! I am happy I finally found the courage to move on!!

  2. So happy for you Jen! I just made a career change for myself (started the new job this week!) with all of these same wants and needs in mind for my mental and physical sanity. It definitely takes a bit to get into a new schedule, and it doesn’t have to be your dream career – but improving your quality of life and allowing yourself the time to enjoy your life is so, so important. So glad that you’re able to take that time that you so deserve…and that you’ll get to wear cute clothes much more often ;) haha <3

  3. :) yay! Glad to see you’re alive and getting happier by the minute. Good for you, following your heart. I actually went through something similar – in December I quit my job of 4 1/2 years without having anything else lined up for sure. It sounded crazy but I needed to make a change so I listened to my gut and made a leap of faith. Like you,
    I was happier from the moment i gave notice. :) this is an exciting time for you… Congrats!’ Keep us posted!

    • That is SO courageous, girlfriend! I LOVE that you took a leap of faith like that… I actually told myself if I hadn’t found anything by June, I was going to quit anyway even that meant going through my savings. Your sanity is truly more important than money in some situations! Luckily it didn’t come to that :)

  4. Good luck! Happiness is so important and when we spend so much of our time at work, it needs to make us at least somewhat happy.
    I’ve changed jobs more times than I’d like to admit (and been laid off 3 years) so I definitely get the highs and lows and risks of something new, but most of the time it’s worth it. Even if it’s not perfect, it still happens for a reason.
    I’m sure it will be great!

    • Thank you so much! Our work definitely needs to make us happy and I will never understand why it seems like so many companies try to make you miserable. I’m hoping my next venture proves me wrong :)

  5. Congratulations!!! I hope this new beginning brings TONS of happiness and lots less stress for you!!! yay for better work life balance and enjoying it! and just in time for the warmer weather…a plus in my book :)

  6. I can’t even tell you how happy and proud I am for you!!! This is a brave move and that takes guts. You’re amazing!

  7. SO happy for you and your new job Jen!! I totally know what you mean about retail turning you into something you’re not!
    Yay to having a life with weekends off again, and wearing normal clothes, woot woot!!!

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  9. I’m so happy for you and the new job! I can’t wrap my head around a high end luxury brand having ugly outfits, that’s brutal and I’m glad you dress like how you want to in the new gig!

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