great friends

My morning view on the way to the gym:


Breath-taking. I keep forgetting that it’s just about holiday season (probably because NYC has been having 60-70 degree days and it’s almost mid-November!) and my first one living in NYC! John and I would come to NYC the first weekend in December every year on a bus trip with the awesome women he used to work with (Alicia if you’re reading, I miss you!) and visit all the tourist traps, but the holidays down here are SO BEAUTIFUL!

I’ve been a little obsessed with Pinterest lately. It really is an awesome site if you want motivation and inspiration. I usually look up running and fashion pins, and this picture was so beautiful!

Haha i love that.

I’ve been eating my usuals so no need to bore you with pictures.. oatmeal, egg sandwiches, carrots w/ hummus, apples with peanut butter, (everything with peanut butter), veggies, tuna w/ goat cheese (my newest obsession), salads. Tuesday night I decided to try to roast some of the kale I had. Side note- I bought it instead of lettuce or spinach thinking I could use it for a salad… not so much. But it’s a big bag so I WILL use it, even though I don’t like it. Roasting it caused it to whittle like paper, but it had so much garlic and red pepper flakes that I ate it anyway. Ketchup made it tolerable. I’m using it in an omelet tonight for dinner because I hate wasting food, and it might just end up growing on me! Just not raw.

This week my workouts have been GREAT! I’ve gone hard everyday since Sunday. I’ve ran, elliptical-ed, spun, walked, and strength trained. I’ve been so much better about not stress eating, but I have definitely needed to keep my eating more than I was before the stress eating. I feel less fluffy than I have the last few weeks, but I think it will take a few more to feel back in shape. I’m listening to my body instead of just going by the calories I THINK I should be eating… it just isn’t enough, so I’m trying to ignore the numbers. It’s a hard process to try to convert into intuitive eating, because it definitely has caused me to gain a little bit which I had read was normal as you are learning to listen to your body. I know it will even out, and the stress eating was the biggest culprit. I semi-slipped last night, after I had oatmeal for lunch I wanted it again for dinner because I had a school project and had no time to cook, but I was feeling very stressed and ended up eating a few slices of toast with peanut butter and honey after. That’s my ultimate comfort food apparently. It’s healthy, but having had oatmeal for two meals already I didn’t need more carbs. I didn’t feel sick or even close to full, so I’ll accept that my body needed the energy to compensate for my extra hard workouts, and move on. Done and done πŸ™‚

Speaking of school, I am really at a loss as to what to do from here on out. My major was fashion merchandising, but I changed it to just business administrative after realizing fashion is not really the industry I want to work in. Having a business degree leaves a pretty open door, but I truly don’t want to be a business major anymore either. I have wanted to be a health teacher since before I lost weight and got passionate about health and fitness, but I thought it would be more glamorous and fun to be in fashion. I have changed so much since high school, and I want to help and teach people about healthy living. I want to make people feel hopeful and not alone, and be able to manage and view healthy living in a whole new perspective. Being a health teacher and also personal training/ weight loss coaching on the side is my ultimate dream now. My dilemma is do I continue with the business program and get my associate’s since I can have it by next spring, or do I look into switching majors and probably losing credit for all of the classes I’ve taken thus far? I have to research and make a decision soon because my school work is slacking big time. I come home exhausted and miserable and I can’t put my all into my school work. It really sucks, because I made the Dean’s List the last two semesters. My head and heart are just not in it this semester, but I have made out a list of everything that is due for the rest of the month so I can make sure I know what’s coming and get some work done ahead of time. I can power through this and make the best of it.

I always think about how lucky I am to have great people in my life, but yesterday was one of those days that smacks you in the face with them and tells you that life is awesome because of them. I was feeling pretty down, but it quickly changed after Caitlin gave me a card she saw atΒ  Trader Joe’s and bought for me! Inside she told me that I’m fabulous no matter how I feel, and that she is so glad we’re friends. I cried tears of joy because it was so sweet, and then laughed my ass off because the girl has an obsession with cards and I love it. Her and my other co-worker and great friend Erica wrote me two amazing, empowering emails that really helped and changed the course of my day from shitty to great! I ran a 5K on my lunch break and it felt like summer, but with amazing views of fall trees. It was pretty radical. It’s 2011 and I just brought back ‘radical’, get ready.

So even though life sucks a lot lately because I’m not in the place I want to be school and career wise, I am reminded so often that I have so many things to be happy about. Great friends, great family, legs to run with, a city that is beautiful and never dull, and a lifetime ahead of me to figure my shit out.

Do you count/track calories or are you an intuitive eater?

Have you ever switched majors or career paths?

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9 thoughts on “great friends

  1. I absolutely love love love the “Someone who is busier than you is running right now” sign. I may have to steal that from you!

  2. Okay so your blog post was kind of like reading my own journal (except while you aren’t stress eating– i just ate wayy too many sweet potato chips & maybe a little bit of cheese with them). Anyways, I started out at a early childhood/special ed, switched to high school math & just finish a degree in human development. I am not stressing over getting pre-reqs done for Nursing school when I just had a conversation with my mother about how i’d rather be a nutritionist/personal trainer. Long story short is I should have a career since I am 23– but I don’t. And neither do THOUSANDS of other people are age, so therefore, keep your head up. I think with a business degree you can get really far!! A lot of places just require a 4 year degree so stick it out & I bet you something will fall right in to your arms. You’re way too amazing & dedicated for something like this not to happen.

    CHIN UP GIRLFRIEND!

  3. great post, jen. i can definitely relate to struggling with this kind of school stuff. my advice is that you clearly have a passion for something – not a lot of people can say that, i certainly can’t! like you said, you have so much in your life to be thankful for, but i see that as things are so good that you should go for your dreams! maybe if you’re not a health teacher, have you ever considered being a counselor? integrative nutrition is a great school, or you could even go to the natural gourmet institute and be the next bethenny frankel! πŸ™‚ those kind of things coupled with your business degree could really take you far!

    • thank you Gina! I have definitely considered being a counselor and think that would be great. I will look into integrative nutrition, ive never heard of that! i also am going to study for my personal training certification when this semester is over and hopefully be able to take the test in between december-january before the spring semester. That way I can start building a client base and even get a part time job at a gym. I talk about weight loss and fitness to almost everyone I meet (it somehow always comes up haha) and think about it 24/7, I know its my passion and i so badly want to make it my career!

  4. Ive been going to school on and off since I was 18, I am not 26 and am still working on an associates degree. I will graduate with an Associates in Science after next semester and was planning on going on and becoming a nurse. However, I’ve been working in a hospital for the past 2.5 years and am REALLY rethinking that job choice. I have said nursing was going to be my career choice since.. gosh.. seems like forever. I think I am going to continue on because it would be such a stable career and its something I’ve always said I wanted to be- I procrastinate way TOO much and I feel like I have never followed through with anything. Whether it be weightloss, school, etc.I need to prove to myself that I can finish something. You are not alone and you still have a long time to figure everything out. The MOST IMPORTANT thing is that you are happy. You may be soul searching now, figuring where your nitch is in society.. but don’t lose yourself in the mist of it all. Remember what makes you happy and BE happy. Love your blog!

    • I can relate to the not finishing things.. thats how i feel about school! i give up on things really easily, but weight loss and maintaining my health now is the one thing i have not and it makes me feel very proud when i actually stop to think about it! being happy is the most important thing in life.. and thats what im searching for! a lot of people give me advice on not taking my job so seriously (because im not super happy at it) but the problem is that i put my all into things and thats why i NEED to be doing what i love!

  5. First of all, I love the picture of NYC in the AM!! I’ve been thinking you are crazy to get up so early and work out! J/K..not really but I’m not a morning person and could never do it! But , I must say after seeing that picture..I would want to get up and go to the gym just for that view.. I’m much older than you, but I remember the feeling of not knowing what I wanted to do…I changed my major countless times and even changed colleges once but now I”m doing what I was truly called to do and I love it..So keep looking inward and you will figure it out. Definitely follow your dreams. You are an inspiration to so many already , I can’t imagine how fulfilling it will be when you are able to realize you are inspiring people every day and gettting paid for it!!! Good luck and I love your Blog!!!

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